6.07.2012

Indulging in Some Wallowing

Oh, friends, I'm a mess.  There's the little stuff, like our car issues that are still not sorted out which have made my work commute a chore at times.  There's the extra long stretch at work that I finished a few days ago and the unrealistic stock that I held in the weekend that would follow.  Lots of little things went wrong in those two weekend days that made it a real bummer.  There's the fact that I haven't gotten enough sleep lately which always means trouble for my emotional state.  But all of that stuff is stuff I can deal with.  I'm in full waterworks mode, though, because Kato, whom Barry and I had the pleasure of dog sitting last week, is very old and very sick.  He's going to be put down this week.  And I cannot stop crying about it.  At home.  At work.  At the gym.  I'm a total and complete mess over it, and I'm embarrassed about it, too.  I mean, he's not my dog.  And my reaction to what's happening is pretty intense.  I need to take some time to get myself together.  Back soon-ish.



12 comments:

Stephanie Fazio (aka lealou) said...

Oh I'm so sorry to hear about that Susan - it's always tough when someone has to put a beloved pet down....

Estate said...

You have such a good heart, indulge yourself.

Shona~ LALA dex press said...

It's a big thing in a long list of things compounded by lack of sleep... and in the end, it's really sad when something like this happens. Indulge and get it all out.

Take care & see ya when you feel better.

PS. "Everlasting Meals" arrived and a after I'm done I am lending it to a friend who used to treat herself to a monthly meal at Chez Panisse when she lived near Burkeley. I know she will love it.

rachel said...

Oh, friend. Please don't be embarrassed about it. If only you knew how many dogs I've shed tears over (mine or someone else's). Kato's lucky to have had you and Barry! I hope after this week he'll be happily running around with my Tess and Haley.

Connie said...

Take care of yourself Susan, and get some sleep. all the best.

Mom said...

Dear Suzy,

Wish I could hold you and give you a hug. It's so hard to read this even when you know that it would be even harder to watch Kato suffer and be in pain.

I told you that when I had to take Taffy and then Gusti in, it was terrible. And then sometimes I would hear Gusti as if she was still out in the garage whining to come in the house.

Cry all you want, glad you have pictures of him and that he slept with you, but do try to get some sleep. I love you. Mom

Scintilla said...

suzy dear lady,
aww, thinking of you and sending over some hugs. i am so sorry, what a week you have had..xoxo

Holly said...

My heart and stomach just sank. I haven't even met this dog and I am tearing up. Oh Suz such sad news. Sounds like he has had an awesome life and was so well loved. Ugh. I hate this part of having a dog. But they do bring so much joy when they are with us. You and Barry are such great friends.

Sonya Philip said...

It's so sad. My dog is getting older and I don't notice it most of the time, but the years catch up with them. I'm so sorry to hear about Kato, sounds like a special dog. When emotions just hit us so hard like that, it's crazy and unsettling. Get some rest, another cry, and take care.

marissahuber.com said...

Though it's not your dog, it shows the true size of your heart, and your capacity for the empathy of others. Sending a HUGE hug. Go take care of yourself and take a break, girl. xoxoxo

Wallow for a bit, and then pick yourself up when the time has come.

marissahuber.com said...

Though it's not your dog, it shows the true size of your heart, and your capacity for the empathy of others. Sending a HUGE hug. Go take care of yourself and take a break, girl. xoxoxo

Wallow for a bit, and then pick yourself up when the time has come.

Shan said...

XO

I felt so silly about my emotion over my daughter's guinea pig dying (even saying it now, I feel silly) but I spent two sleepless nights, three days crying, and four days not answering the phone...and how much more does a dog occupy our hearts!

Grief is one of the most important human experiences, and passing through it is an amazing thing.

(Even grief for a guinea pig.)